December (2)

December 17th

Got my B12 done today a bit early but I thought it would help over the Christmas time. I can usually tell when I am getting low and it needs topping up. This one hurt a lot going in but the pain soon went off.

18th

In town today to get last bits of shopping. I did not know what to get Jay-Jay and Tommy-Lee as a small present, we are giving money, so just something for Christmas day to open. I got them both art pencil and pads. I already had a art folder for Jay-Jay. I managed to get Tommy-Lee one but was not happy with it. I found another one on ebay. He will get it later but says he does not mind. Jamie has got a mixture of clothes and making activity's. So I think I am done.

19th

Supposed to be at Pilate's but the rain is coming down so I did not fancy getting wet. I will see Jo after Christmas.

I have a cold coming on. Hot, cold and a headache from hell, dizzy too.

My friend has lost her fight for life age 94 (same as Ben) and she passed early this morning. Her daughter is very lost now and says she can not live without her. I hope she will be fine, her four dogs will comfort her. I see her most days so hopefully that will help her. She has no relatives so is on her own now.


20th

Angela's 60th birthday. I already got a DVD set earlier in the year so just got her a funny age mug.
She stopped for a while had a drink, non alcohol, that's later, as she was driving.

My son Wayne phoned up, he also has got this cold thing and is working from home. He is suffering like me.

He was made Manager a few days ago so I am very proud of him, he deserves it.

Cold not good-- streaming eyes and still head pain mostly behind my eyes.

21st

Age UK just pork and sausage buns plus cakes. No where as busy either, which was good as I still feel crap.

Bit of shopping then home. Knee has not improved yet but I suppose its still early days after the injection. Hopefully it will help then no operation will be needed.

23rd

Looking after Andy's cat for the next few days. He is away till the 27th

Taking round the presents to the relatives.

A lot of spasms in my knee and leg despite taking QUININE.


24th

Knee very bad today, taking a lot of extra tablets. Makes me wonder how much pain I am really in as on a lot of strong pain medication for the other things. The pain starts off the RSD and FIBOMYALGIA pain as well, so before you know it-- full body pain.

Went round to see my friend who's Mum just passed. She invited me in, at first I was not going to as Wayne my son was on his way here. Paul was on his way back from picking him up from Halifax. I  decided to go in, and we talked about her mum and other things. I have known her and her Mum a long time, around 40 years I think. I am pleased I went in hopefully I helped her a bit.

25th

A lovely Christmas day, 9 for dinner, all went well. A noisy day but good too. Lindsay took all the young ones home late afternoon so I could have a rest.

 Cold is still not good but at least the head ache has lessen.

27th

My Brother and sister in law hear for tea. They brought along William their grandson my cousin I think. He played with Lego most of the time. A good afternoon bit quieter than Christmas day.

Paul did all the tea and washing up so an easy day for me.

Andy is back from his trip so Smudge cat was pleased to see him.

29th

Wayne back home today. Paul is taking him and Andrew is going too. I think the promise of an Indian later enticed him. Just me and pup then.

Wayne arrived home safe, and Paul and Andrew back home again. They both said the Indian they had was very good.

31st

Well New Year Eve what will 2019 bring ?--- less pain I hope and my knee better one way or another.

All the best to you all and a Very Happy New Year to everyone, all the best Love Gill








December (1)



1st December


How do I feel, a bit numb I think- Ben was a good friend and a Gentleman. When I held his hand it brought back my own Dads passing, as I did the same for him holding his hand as he slipped away.
I think both Ben and my Dad both died partly of a broken heart. Ben for Cilla his Wife, Dad for my Mum, after she passed away eight weeks earlier..

2nd

IA dinner today a lot went, 25 in total. Most of us wore Christmas jumpers or tops. Very noisy with a lot of conversations going on. A good meal and good to catch up with everyone.

Andrew and I took Summer out for a walk I felt like I needed it. Summer enjoyed it anyway.

I have bean looking after Andy's cat while he is away. There used to be two but not now, Cowley got attacked by a swan and it injured his bladder and tail. Seemed strange without him.

3rd

Sorted out the cakes today and put marzipan on them as one is being picked up on Thursday. Next the icing in a couple of days.

4th

Very sharp frost to begin with, at four this morning there was none, so must have turned very cold after that.

Iced the cakes they look good I think.


Cleaned up downstairs. My knee is very painful today and I have to be careful how I walk and not to twist it.

5th

I was surposed to be getting my knee looked at today but it was changed. Hopefully next week.

Made some small sponge cakes from the egg yokes that were left after the icing from yesterday. (you only use the whites) These were very tasty and light.

No Pilates today- rained hard most of the day, it would have not bean a nice journey for me on my bike.

Angela came round for a chat and later so did Joy. We all had a good talk nice for the three of us to be together for a change.

6th

My friend Beeston Bev is here, ages since I have seen her. A lot of catching up to do and a very enjoyable day, we als exchanged presents. She took her cake, my present to her and Dave. She said it looked very nice. I forgot to take a picture of them so there are only three cakes here.



7th

My Dads Birthday if he was still here I still miss him a lot.

Age UK when I finally got there, six trains in all one freight train with 59 trucks. Waited at the gates for ages. No sooner had I got through the gates, more trains were coming. (Lincoln has a train level crossing on the High Street)

Age UK was steady so that was good. The Christmas Market is on for the weekend so I think all our customers are there. I put my name down to help at the last of the three Christmas Party's next Friday. Jenny was pleased. Last year I had to leave as the noise was getting to me and causing me pain. Hopefully this year I can cope better.

9th

Changed the bed to day and washed the bedding I was able to put it out as it was sunny and windy. Not for too long though as it rained later.

Summer's leg is about right now, apart from when she has bean laid down then its a bit stiff. I am so pleased as I thought it might have bean broken like I said in the last Blog, but she is fine even bean playing with her ball.

I am knitting some bits for presents so will put pictures up at a later date after Christmas.

10th

In town today getting Christmas presents I did quite well too. Rung Paul up to get a lift home as my  thee bags were heavy. My knee is not good today hurts a lot and is very tight.

Feels very strange without Ben next door. I thought I heard him coughing last night.There are no light on when I go past all in darkness. I know its what he wanted as he had no quality of life for the past two years so its for the best and he was a good age ninety four, but I still will miss him.

11th

Seeing Doctor Metha at last, spoke to him about everything I had to, and got most of my tablets at the chemist. Andrew also went in with me as he was seeing Doctor Metha next.

Very cold and foggy when we walked back. We could not see the Cathedral at all. Pleased to get home.

12th


YES the Hospital appointment At Kingsmill near Nottingham this was a huge place and very bright inside and out. I saw a very nice Surgen called Mr Joby John. I had three xrays of my knee. The Doctor is quite reluctant to operate because of my RSD. He suggested an alternative. I did not know there was one. An injection straight into my knee just at the side of the knee cap opposite side to the main pain area.  I said yes I will try it, what have I got to loose, nothing-- if it works great if not the operation goes ahead. Doctor Metha did not think an injection would be possible.


The injection needle was very long and went in most of the way. Yes it did hurt but no more than a bad B12 injection. The knee straight away felt very tight and quite a bit of pain.  I got a plaster too, he did say the pain could get worse before it gets better.

 
Not very clear but ducks and chickens on my plaster.


I was asked to sit in the waiting room quietly for a while just to make sure everything was alright.

After that we went for a cup of tea and a sandwich these are so much cheaper here than in Lincoln County Hospital. A much nicer Hospital all round I think, made me feel very calm and not rushed like it is at Lincoln some times.


13th

Knee very tight and painful today.

Julia Ben's Daughter came round and round me a bouquet of flowers and a card to Paul and I thanking us for everything we did for Ben over the last few years. I said I would do it all again and I will miss him so much. I said to her I keep thinking I can hear him coughing. We all knew it was going to happen soon but still it was a shock when it does.

 
   
 


14th

Age UK Party the third party of the weak so the last one. All went well, Jenny bought me some raffle. tickets but I did not win. I was looking after some tickets for the Mayors wife and she won, I went up and got a beauty gift set for her, nice it was too. The Mayor's number came up twice as well. The music was not too loud this year as last years then it was very loud and distorted- as the speakers were not set up right. This year a Choir and a lady was singing, both very good too. After we got our Christmas dinner, not the best as it had bean kept warm for around an hour but still good. We have to pay now for our meal so a free one is always good.

15th

What a bitter cold wind it is today straight from Siberia, biter cold on the common. Even feels cold in the house.

Lindsay dropped off Jamie-Lee and went shopping. We played with the Lego and made a mask and did some colouring. Lindsay picked her up and off they went home.

Paul was soon home from watching football he said it was very cold.


Not too bad this first part of the month apart from my knee that is. The pain is still setting off the RSD. At night when I just want to rest, the pain really seems to get worse but the Doctor did say it would get worse first, then hopefully improve.

  The very best to you all and a Happy Christmas. Love Gill.

November(2)

17th

Eye test today the optician said my eyes were good and have improved since the last test. They were damaged when I had the seizures in and by the pool on holiday August 2016. Left eye the worst as it was scraped. My eyes took a long time to recover needing two new stronger lots of glasses. So its good news all round no test for two years.


18th

Sorting out the garden which has bean neglected this year. Got all the dead plants and weeds into the green bin. I took a lot of cuttings of fuchsias and put them in the greenhouse, hopefully some will take root. Some will be for Wayne's garden as there is a lot.

19th

Summer had her haircut today looks like a little pup again. So soft and white.


 
  So pretty.

20th

Spoke to Doctor Metha about my knee (this was a phone call not a visit) he said it will need surgery, whether keyhole or more major he does not know. I asked him about muscle relaxants and he said for me BACLOFEN is the best. I still have some from last time so I have started taking them, only one a day to see if this helps as only a little help needed.

I like Doctor Who and have bean watching this, I am not sure about the new one- Jodie Whittaker.    A lady this time but, we will see, this weeks was good.

21st

No Pilate's today knee quite sore. I can not get it to stop hurting at all.

Played Scrabble later with Andrew and Hannah. A good game I won by one point. I kept getting vowels, seven at one point. Andrew had none.

A lot of pain in my legs when I went to bed.

22nd

Met a lady on the South Common that rescues Westies and she had a new one. This dog lost his lady owner, she went into Hospital and never came home, then was mistreated by her partner, not being fed and was hit. Poor dog first he looses his Mum then gets mistreated. If he did not want the dog why did he not bring it in sooner had it not suffered enough ?
Anyway it's doing well now he came right up to me and was getting some fuss. All her rescue dogs have come to me for a fuss but not to anyone else. Maybe they sense kindness.

23rd

AGE UK very busy today every table taken up all the time. Even when Jenny and I left at 2-00pm there were still 4 tables in use. Bit of shopping then home. I got myself some new pyjamas soft and fleecy so should be warm, might help my legs keep warm too.

Very tired, more exhaustion I hurt just about everywhere, RSD is having a field day with my knee. Even the right one now hurts a lot. Just leave me alone a bit will you. I have forgotten whats it like
to have no pain.

24th

Got a letter from the knee consultant cancelling the appointment-- what this time booked into bum surgeon or something. The next letter I got on the same day gave me a new appointment for the next week. When will I see someone hopefully then, unless.!!!!.

Went to the crematorium to see Mum, Dad and Phillip- I put on some flowers. Stopped a while then Summer and I headed off home. On the way back Summer got tired and I decided to carry her a bit. A fair walk for her and her little legs I picked her up, and she jumped and slipped to the floor. She seems alright but later on limped and was hardly walking. I thought she may be broken her leg.
I pressed it but it seemed alright. I decided to hang on going to the vets and see how she went on.
She did improve but was in a bit of pain.

25th

Summer's leg I think is a bit better she is still limping but is using it more. Gave her a rest no walking on the common today.


Shopping today with Paul. Got a few presents for Christmas.

26th

More improvement with Summer's leg. I am so pleased no vets trip needed this time. I think she had pulled a muscle.

Making bread today, I could not make out the quantity needed-- it might as well have bean in Chinese. Put in too much salt.  My mind could not work it out at all. I am told this is BRAIN FOG common in RSD. I know this is happening more now than it used too. Also staring black out seizures. I hurt everywhere, standing, sitting or laying.

27th

Hell of a lot of pain in my joints never letting up at all. PLEASE STOP I HAVE HAD ENOUGH.

My face to face with Doctor Metha has bean changed again. When I see him it will be now on 11th December and the next day for my knee unless it's changed again. I was hoping to see the knee consultant first but at this rate I will be lucky to see anyone.

28th

Took Summer on the Fairground Common as its flatter. I have bean going down Sincil Bank the last few days and not very far either, better for her at the moment. Her leg is good, hardly a limp now but I can see its not quite right yet.

My knee is very tight and sore today even when sitting down the pain will not stop..

30th

Age Uk very steady almost quiet but it was nice not to be rushed off our feet.
The volunteers coordinator has left suddenly, she will not be missed by us the volunteers as she was not a peoples person and hardly spoke to us..

Squidge came round and asked me to look after Ben and Emmie (two doors away) for a few hours while they went out, I said I would. Another knock on the door a bit later, and Ben's (from next door) carer was stood there. She was worried about Ben as he was unresponsive. One of Bens relations came later and we both stopped with Ben. I held his hand and talked to him giving him the occasional kiss on his head. We ended up calling an Ambulance as we could not get any of his close family on the phone. He was not good, but they did not take him to hospital. He is coming to the end of his life. I got to look after the children Ben and Emmie a lot later than expected.

 I went back round to next door later, and Ben's son was there. I said if you need me I will sit with him. His other son arrived later so I was not needed. I went to bed around 5am but could not sleep for a long while.

December 1st

Ben slipped away around dinner time. His same carer came round very upset as she thought he had gone.  I gave him a kiss and held his hand to say good bye. We phoned 999 and they came to sort him out and confirm what we had thought.

REST IN PEACE BEN YOU WILL BE MISSED.

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